~*~ Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But I'd rather be your moon, so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun is not around... ~*~ One night, the moon asked me, “Why don’t you leave him if he makes you cry?” I looked up at the moon and said, “Moon, would you ever leave your sky?”~*~

October 7th, 2008

New blog

See the date of the entry before this one?  Aackkk.  I have a new blog now.  Why?  I just want a new one.  Anyway, it's now


iammiamia.multiply.com

 

If you happen to visit www.purebeef.tk, my blog's link leads to this one.  Please visit the site above for my new blog.  Thanks! :D

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August 2nd, 2006

A Beautiful Disaster

The past two weeks was like going through hell and back again. And no, I don't mean hell week in school, it's still the middle of the semester. And I don't mean getting all dizzy in the plane, either, when we went to Bohol. *damn that turbulence*

I want to share this poem with you, and maybe you'll have an idea what I went through.^^

One Art
Elizabeth Bishop

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day.
Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther; losing faster: places, and names,
and where it was you meant to travel.
None of this will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch.
And look! My last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones.
And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied.
It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

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I got this from our Speech Communication 102 (Voice and Diction) instructor the day I lost "him". That time, I was still hurting and hating. But right now, I feel much different. I'm much too happy to even feel the slightest hatred "his" memories bring me. It feels nicer if you're not bitter. Haha. I just realized that I should devote some time for my studies, do the things I love, and just plain have fun with my family and friends.^^ It's not my first break-up, and I've gotten so tired of always being in the losing end. For 19 months, I thought he's the one who completes me. But damn that foolish thought! I'm still alive and I feel much BETTER without him in my life.^^ Honestly, that's what I feel now.^^ I believe that there's a reason for everything, and that if it wasn't meant for you, something better is.^^ I allow God to work His way into my life. After all, I belong to no one else but Him.^^

Gawd, have to do my assignment pa pala! XD

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May 15th, 2006

Zombies and Dinosaurs on a Stormy Day

I have to admit, I liked the weather for the last three days.  I missed the rain, but definitely not the brown-outs.  Still, we got to enjoy most of the day by eating Lucky Me! Pancit Canton and Happy peanuts and drinking coffee.  Then we hang out at my grandma's terrace for kwentuhan, together with our dogs, Fiona and Bembem.  Yesterday, we played Dino Crisis and Resident Evil 1.  We finished Dino Crisis.  We're almost done with RE1 also.  We never got to finish it on PS, but much to our delight, my cousin downloaded a PS1 emulator and we were able to use those PS1 cds again.  That's practically what I'm busy about these days.  I'm not yet through with my theater practicum but as there are no activities until the last week of May, I got to enjoy playing computer games til the wee hours of the morning.  

What I missed about the rainy days were, of course, the rain (I get to sleep more comfortably with it) and the cold weather.  I don't know if this is true for other people, but I have a tendency to get a bit sad when it's a rainy day.  So that's usually the best time for me to write a story or a poem, but in my case for the last three days, well, it was the best time for us to enjoy playing computer games. Hehe.

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April 20th, 2006

Philippine Ragnarok Online = Contemporary Philippines

UPLB summer classes have officially started yesterday, but our instructor in SOSC2 wasn't able to come to class yesterday so we started today.  Again, I'm a late enrollee, tnx to my ever forgetful mind.  Oh well, no use crying over spilled milk.  I'm waiting for Jules today so we could play RF Online together.  Yep, I've quitted Ragnarok Online.  Lately, a lot of people are quitting that game, and it seems all of them have the same reasons.  I have to admit, the game has gotten dirtier.  Talamak ang bot, especially during the gambling event.  Bagsak presyo ang mga cards dahil sa bot.  When I went to Manila, there was this guy who was playing O2 Jam and when he opened the other windows, I was surprised to find about 10 bot programs!  Gawd, lahat ng yun nagsusugal lang.  Imagine that?!  Bot programs are sooooooo obvious but GMs fail to catch them.  Yea yea, I know, business yun eh.  Bakit nga naman ba nila iba-ban ang mga bots eh dun sila yumayaman? Sabihin na nating may 20 harvesters ka, tig-P100 load lahat yun, eh di instant P2,000.  At totoo na may player na ganyan karami ang harvesters!   

Another thing is, almost all players who have bot programs are PROUD that they are botting.  Huh?!  Has the world gone upside down?  Mayabang ka kse may bot ka, mayaman ka, may fafa (or mama) kang mayaman, halos lahat ng gamit esp. headgears meron ka at wala nang maisip ang asawa mo na ibigay na regalo sayo dahil halos lahat ng gamit meron ka na, marami kang level 99, almost all jobs-- transcendent jobs pa!  Matindi pa sa Mirinda!  You see, ang mga nakakatiis na lang sa ganitong klase ng laro ay 1) ang mga nandadaya (bot programs and all); 2) mga mayaman iRL na pwedeng-pwede bumili ng zeny; 3) may mga kaibigang GMs na pwedeng ibigay sa kanila lahat ng gusto nila (e.g. /item Ghostring_Card 1,000,000,000,000 pcs); 4) May mga friends (or boy/girlfriend) pa sa RO na hindi nila maiwan;  at lastly 5) mga walang pakialam sa bulok na sistema ng LUG, thus, nagpapagamit lang sila sa mga makapangyarihan na inaabuso ang kanilang karapatang makapaglaro nang matiwasay at masaya (Pilipinas, ikaw ba ito?).

Proof ba kamo?  Madali lang yan!  Try mo maglaro ngayon.  Gawa ka ng account, tapos awayin mo yung mayamang nakita mo.  Anung sasabihin sa'yo?  "PULUBI ka naman!"  Isumbat mo na botter s'ya.  Sagot n'ya, "Eh ano ngayon?  Inggit ka lang!"  Huh? Tama ba kamo ang nababasa mo sa chatscreen mo?  Inggit ka sa pandarayang ginagawa n'ya?  Sabihin mong kadayaan 'yon.  Sasabihin n'ya, "Paki mo?  Inggit ka lang kse mayaman at malakas ako!"  Oo nga naman, paki mo ba eh 'yun ang gusto n'ya?  Ang kaso nga lang, mali ang ginagawa n'ya at ang mga inosenteng katulad mo ay naaapektuhan.  Pero kebs ba n'ya?  Basta ang mahalaga mayaman at malakas s'ya.  At ang basehan ng pagkatao mo sa RO ay kung gaano ka kayaman at kung gaano kataas ang level ng character mo.  Totoong nangyari ito.  At kung ayaw mo maniwala, itry mo na lang.

Isa pa, ang mga mismong taong pinagkakatiwalaan mo, ay ang mga tao ring nanghahack sa'yo!  Kala mo safe ka na?  No way, Jose!  Asa ka pa!  Eh kung regular player nga, nakakapang-hack, yung mga GMs pa kaya na may hawak ng account mo?  Naranasan ko na 'to.  One time nawala halos lahat ng gamit ng isa kong character.  Hindi ko alam kung pa'no nangyari yun eh naka-online s'ya.  Huh?  Panu nabuksan ang account ko kung nabago yung password tapos hindi naman nabasa sa email add ko yung new password ko?  Hmmm... I smell something fishy.  Syempre hindi yun mabubuksan ng GM dahil hindi nya alam ang password ko sa email.  Ang kailangan n'ya lang ay mabuksan ang account ko so ang ginawa n'ya, nagforget password s'ya para madisconnect ang character ko.  Alam n'ya ang answer sa secret question ko, syempre GM sya eh!  Tapos alam naman n'ya ang new password ko so why worry?  Voila!  Open na ang account ko at todo kuha na s'ya ng gamit!  May kakilala akong nagbebenta ng zeny.  Inamin n'ya na inside job talaga 'yun.  May contact sya sa LUG.  GM na may kapangyarihang mag-generate ng zeny.  Huwaw!  Walang katapusang ligaya.  Kaso, sabi n'ya, konting GMs lang ang may ganung kapangyarihan, kaya naman yung ibang GMs, nangha-hack na lang.  Ok sa Olrayt!  Ngayon alam ko na kung pa'no nadali account ko.  Galing ah!

So you see, pag hindi ka mayaman sa RO, wala-- bulok ka, pulubs ka, mahina ka, and so much more namecallings na binibigay ng mga taong yumaman lang naman dahil sa pandaraya.  Malinis kaming maglaro ng mga kapatid at pinsan ko.  Kaya naman nawalan na kami ng gana.  Wala namang ginagawa ang mga nasa taas dahil kumikita sila ng pera dito.  Parang gobyerno natin ngayon.  Ayan na, nasa harap na nila ang lahat ng kabalbalan na pwedeng gawin ng mga opisyales, mga problema ng sambayanan, mga naaapi at nagdudusa, pero nagbubulag-bulagan lang sila.  Wala!  Interes pa rin nila ang kanilang pinangangalagaan.  Selfish ba kamo?  You sure got that right!  Apathetic ba?  Another point for you!  Ganyang klase ng tao ang nagpapatakbo sa larong Ragnarok Online-- at sa Pilipinas.  Sure, it's just a game, kaya nga napakadali para sa akin ang magquit nang basta-basta kahit na sabihing mayaman ako sa game na yun.  Yumaman ako dahil sa swerte (OBB and then voila! Rear item), and dahil na rin sa tulong ng mga kaibigan at kapatid ko.  So if you're going to say na bitter ako dahil hindi naman ako umasenso sa game, well, say it to my face, maglo-load ako ng P10 load para lang ipamukha sa'yo ang kayamanan ko.

I admit, enjoy ako sa paglalaro ng RO dati, lalo na yung marami kaming sabay-sabay naglalaro.  Malinis pa no'n.  At kung may scammers at hackers man, well, hindi talaga mawawala ang mga ganun.  Sa ngayon, sobrang daming jologs na ang naglalaro ng RO.  It has become sooooooooo overrated.

Buti pa sa RF, walang daya... sa ngayon.

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'Pag nabasa ng LUG ito, siguradong hindi na masisikatan ng araw ang account ko sa pRO.  Oh well, I don't care at all!  'Pag nabasa 'to ng pamahalaan... Oh well, eh di nabasa nila.  Kebs ba nila?  Lagi naman silang ganun eh.  Walang pakialam.

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GM -- Game Master (ang mga diyos ng online games)

pRO -- Philippine Ragnarok Online

LUG -- Level Up! Games

RF Online -- Rising Force Online

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April 10th, 2006

Another freakin' Summary

Well, what can I say, the sem ended quite well.  I went to get my classcards today and I met with my friends.  During the last week of the sem, we were pretty busy with schoolwork.  We weren't able to meet and I missed them a lot. 

I'll be having summer classes again and Julius and Joanne are going to be my classmates.  I hope it's another fun summer.

I want to have another project with Lucille and Freeza.  I'm currently working on the story.  Heck, I never thought it would be hard!  It's not like I'm running out of ideas or I find it hard to make one, what's hard is to put those ideas together and make a story.  I feel like I'm recycling my other ideas.  I don't find anything wrong with it since they haven't been written yet, but I want a new one.  Oh and yea, I'm very much inspired by Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles.  CLAMP is so sugoi!

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